You finally Win , but a Mentality Danger is waiting , you and it needs solution , by YOU . You finally Win and you think that your “job” has finished , but this mentality Danger is so sneaky and it waits YOU .

You’ve been underestimated so many times . You’ve been underestimated from so many people , “strangers” to you and NOT only . You’ve been underestimated for so many years in a row , from so many people , from so many different situations .

You’ve been underestimated CONSTANTLY , BRUTALLY , and with every possible way you could once imagine . You’ve been brutalized by constant pain , which brought to you misery and misery brought to you MORE pain .

Pain made you think that all this will NEVER end . Pain woke you up in the mornings and “closed” your eyes , all those endless nights . Pain made your nights being so long lasting and pain woke you up during the nights , terrorizing your dreams .

You thought and tried to persuade yourself that your last night’s meal made caused those painful stomachaches , but pain was “smiling” at you . Countless nights , you prayed so hard and for so many hours to your GOD , to take all this pain from you .

You were saying all the prayers you knew and sometime near morning you managed to fall asleep , but ONLY for this night .

Pain , misery , stress , anxiety from stress , depression in all of its forms(and it has so many my friends ) , poverty in your pockets and poverty inside you , lack of TRUE happiness , lack of TRUE life’s joy , lack of TRUE LOVE , lack of everything which gives humans their humanity , were your “best friends” for so many years .

You forgot how to truly smile and whe you did that for some of your few social activities , the next time you felt so SAD inside you . You inner knew , that you must return to your previous sadness . You inner knew that you had to put an END to ALL OF THIS and you had to find a way to do that , NO MATTER WHAT this would cost you .

You knew that you had to made a stand , or all this situation would WIN YOU permanently and for good . You knew all these , but you felt so weak . You felt that you maybe didn’t have WHAT IT TAKES , to make your stand and WIN .

You knew all these even if your body powers many times were so weak , or you THOUGHT they were so weak . And the days were passing , the weeks were passing , the years were passing . And you were struggling . Most of the times using your “reserves” , physically and mentally .

But you didn’t see a “light at the end of the tunel” and those were the times , your pain was becoming MONSTEROUS , ready to “eat” you . Oh , JESUS how much pain did you suffer my friend .

Day in , day out , the pain was there , reminding you that you maybe AREN’T GOOD ENOUGH in this life and that all these who were saying to you “bad” things , they were maybe right .

You were “beaten” very badly . You had no life jacket , you had noone , you had NOTHING . How many times you were whispering to your ears , that MAYBE it’s time to surrender , to QUIT . How many times you grabbed a bottle of alcohol trying to ease the pain , but the pain was invictus .

How many mornings you woke up and your emotions were undescribable , by common words ? How many mornings you thought that , today is the day you were about to QUIT and put an end to all this pain ?

But for some UNKNOWN REASON , you KEPT GOING !!!!! But for some reason you managed to grabbed your wounded soul and body and kept going to make it , for another ONE DAY . But for some “INSIDE YOU” reason , you postponed the quiting theme for the next day , the next morning .

And the next day , and the next day and the next day . And some day , some morning you woke up and you saw a “LIGHT IN THE TUNEL” . And it was a damn , BIG light .

And you didn’t believe it . You “slapped” yourself to wake up from your dream but you didn’t wake up . You were already awake . The SHOCK cannot be described . You COULDN’T BELIEVE IT . What is going on ?

Is all this a “mind game” life is playing with me , to drive me mad for good this time ? Is THIS REAL ? Is it possible for me to EVENTUALLY MADE my FIRST VICTORY ? The stomachache is “visiting” me again , but this time it’s a different stomachache . It doesn’t hurt at all !!!!!!

What is going on ? I’m not a loser anymore ? I WORTH something ? JESUS , i don’t know how to react to all of this . It’s an unknown situation for me . I was ready(!) to quit , till the previous moment and now i “smell” , my FIRST victory .

I don’t smile , i don’t cry , i don’t think anything , I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO .

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO REACT . I have NEVER felt like that in my entire life . It’s like i’m dreaming and the same time not . What should i do ? I DON’T KNOW .

Is this the TRUE HAPPINESS EMOTION , the books say ? To be honest , all this makes me frighten , makes me “scared to death” .

I take some walks , trying to “adjust” my brain’s “hard-disc” , but i cannot do so . I’ve never experienced something like that in my life . I’ve never experienced this kind of HAPPINESS .

Will someone take it back and return to my previous misery state ? JESUS , JESUS , JESUS , my emotions are so many , so mixed , so different , so strange , so big . I’m not a “bum” anymore . I can do “things” , i can WIN all by my own .

WHO should i thank ? What should i do from now on , trying to handle all this new state of mine ? JESUS , from loser to winner . I don’t believe it , but it seems(!) , it’s real . I must “adjust” to all this , to my NEW BEGINNING . One thing i know for sure .

I WON’T BE THE SAME ANYMORE .

When you’ll make it , after years of struggling , sweat , blood and tears , a new “universe” will “open” for you . Don’t be afraid . Give yourselves a little time to “adjust” and the most important :

Let HAPPINESS , “HEAL” YOU . You deserve it !!!!!!