And it is all OVER .That’s it .
You reached the end of the road . You’ve made it . Finally and for GOOD . The marathon is over . Your marathon , your quest , is over .
No worries from now on , in the respect of your physical goals .You manage to win in all the areas you wanted , within the time you wanted ,the level of perfection you wanted and you didn’t relaxed a tiny inch , till you fulfill your plans exactly as you wanted .
You manage to win , as your scholastic soul , wanted needed .It is over my friend . Breathe . BIG BREATHS , no common ones . No stressful breaths , no 180 heart pulse , breaths from your “alien” training .
No anxiety breaths ,the countless lonely knights ,where your body and soul , were in pain .
In so much pain . No melancholy long breaths , trying to “cheat” yourself and decongest ,the mammoth stress you feeled , for such a long time .
BREATHE my friend .Take a look at the blue sky and breathe . The “bluest” sky and the sunniest sun you ever seen , i know . Take in your hands your precious crown , rise it as higher as you can , show it to the world but mostly , show it to you .
And keep breathing , “white” clean air , and throw away the “dirty” one . The “dirty” , dark air , from deep down your deepest self . And smile , while doing that .
Not “regular” , typical , smile anyone gives , anyone shows in our society’s relationships .But another smile .
The kind of smile , in which all your teeth appears in your mouth and your face chicks cannot stretched any more , from the wider smile you’ve given in your life .
The moments are so mystic these times .As if the time is stopped .These times something “magic” is happening .
It is like a hole up there in the sky is opened ,only for you from the ONE who is “HIDING” , behind the blue of the sky . You have the time to thing so many things .
You have the time to listen to the train which passing ,the bird on the tree , the river miles away ,the rooster “dominate” the chickens(!) , in the closest hennery ,you can see through so many things .
You have never felt this way before in your life . It is so strange this feeling . It is so stronger , than you’ve ever experienced before . But YOU LIKE IT . You like it so much .
It makes your blood boiling . It gives you joy , which makes your arm hairs rise , as if electricity was passing through you . And the thoughts are coming with the speed of light .
All your sweat , pain , work , training , necessary mentall “hardening” , necessary physical “hardening” , soul “bleeding” from ache and sorrow , price you’ve payed by following YOUR rules , loosing friends – lovers – companions – relationships et.c , all these , are over and for good .
JESUS , what a feeling !!!!!!
People sees me smile , but they don’t know . People sees me happy , but they don’t know .People sees me smile , but they don’t know how close i came , from LOSING MYSELF .
People see me smile , but they cannot imagine how many times i walked into the twilight zone , ALL ALONE !!!!! .
Unprotected and alone . But now , all these are over my friend .You must find the time and space ,to “clean” your soul ,your existance , from this so tough test .
You must find the way to catch the lost time ,the lost feelings ,the lost “things” you had in “ice” ,till your final victory . This is so importand .Maybe it is the last , but so importand part of your test .
To BECOME “HUMAN” again !!! .To become a healthy , balanced human again .To “REBORN” !!!!! . I know that you’ll enjoy the “process” .
And my friend , if these moments a big tear comes in your eyes , wanted to go out and show to all , who you are , what you did , don’t fight it .
Let it go outside in the warmth of the sun , “clean” it all . Let it show to the whole planet , the “secret” unwritten law , which exists since the beginning of time that :
the SOUL TEAR , is UNBEATABLE …..
* Oh GOD please make me cry this way , once in my lifetime !!