It has FINALLY CAME !!!!!

It has finally came this day . I was dreamed of this enlightening day for so many days . For so many months . For so many years . How many “rivers of tears” i’ve poured ( without letting anyone see me ) till the coming of THIS PARTICULAR DAY .

How many nights i struggled with insomnia and stomachaches , because of the mammoth stress i’ve experienced and i couldn’t found a happy thought to hold on , till the morning sunrise .

How many times i was afraid of the nights , because i knew that i would struggle again to sleep and i would have failed ?

How many times i was “jumping” from my bed during the night , with my heart rate in the “red-zone” and terror all over me ?Terror with no specific cause , just terror .

JESUS , how many times these dark nights i’ve said to myself that it would be , my last one ?

ButI survived i made it . World can you hear me ?

I made it , at last . The journey has come to its end . And I AM THE WINNER . Man , i cannot believe it . I think i’m dreaming and that someone will wake me and restore me to my previous torture .

But noone appears . It is true . I’m the last one and i’m standing on my feet , healthy and alive . Who would believe it ?

Noone would , maybe one , maybe a few . But i don’t blame them . My fight was so gigantic , maybe beyond the human limits . Beyond mine’s surely .The sun is brighter than ever .

The air in my balcony is fresher than ever . The light “seems” so bright in my eyes . No more darkness . I turn the heater on , while i make my favorite coffee and start my NEW LIFE’S DAY .The smell of the coffe spreads all over my house bringing happy memories in my mind .

Memories of joy , companies with friends and cousins in my village those restless summers ,endless talks drinking tons of coffee , loves and lovers , dreams and plans for the future . A perfect future as we dreamed , as “innocent” children .

The water is ready for my morning shower and i drink a couple of coffee draught and i enter my bathroom . My favorite levanta soap , my favorite toothpaste and my favorite razors , are waiting to give me satisfaction and care .

I open my bath’s door after and the levanta perfume escapes and blended with my coffee flavoring , making the room a sense’s “paradise” .

My bathrobe is so soft and fluffy and i smile for satisfaction as never before in my life .No more fear for the future coming after all my happy times in the past making so introvert . GOD how much i deest this feeling . And this feeling was “stuck” on me , my hole life .

Yes it was a great motivation to try with all my powers and sometimes above them , but i will always detest it .

You don’t know the power of fear ,until fear “visits” you and transform into terror from the constant “attacks”on your deepest depths , of your soul . But now all this is over .

My favorite Nike which i couldn’t buy in the poverty and misery years , are waiting infront of my bed aside to my favorite Jean and T-shirt .

Above my desk , the all new Aviator watch i ordered and came directly from the Swiss factory made only for me ,is waiting in its box glowing expecting my left wrist to put on .

I order it directly from this elite Swiss factory , giving them all the specifications i wanted , without asking about the price and cost .It is the first time in my life , i do this and it feels so cool . I want this , i take this . No second thoughts , no more empty credit cards .

I knew then the “stone years” , that i tried to achieve my goals not for gaining money , but for the PRIMITIVE and ancient satisfaction of tasting victory and fullfilling my dreams as a human being who dreams .

The money came as a result of all these efforts on mine but i cannot hide it , i enjoy spending some bucks . All these are passing my brain while i dress myself and some tiny smiles are appearing so “sneaky” .

Yes from satisfaction caused from relief .The fresh cotton from these clothes feels so nice on my fresh bathed skin and i enjoy the perfection of the fitting in my body , from these fine clothes .

So this how the intergrated people , are feeling their every day . I tied my leather belt , put on a pint of Old Spice which i love its vintage aura so mauch , i take the keys of my old bike for the last time and close behind me the door .

This old Yamaha of mine is revving for the last time in my garage , as i’ll leave it and buy my all new bike , which is waiting me in the bike shop , a couple of days now .

Me and “she” , have so much history together . “She” never left alone , no matter if “She” had new tyres , servises , oil and stuff .

“She” only needed some gasoline and sometimes some “light kicks” to start over ….. I don’t know , maybe i’ll keep “her” too . I can do it now . I’ve EARNED THE PRIVILIGE TO DO “THINGS” AS I WANT .

But i’ve already arrived in the bike-shop and i can see it from the outside my new bike clean and polished and “smiling” .

The papers are already done , the guys from the shop have prepared “her” and i’m ready to push the button and give “her” life , for the first time in “her” life .

You know this proccess , is so personal and unique and it stays in your soul for ever .You are the first one who touch your “machine” , after the factory production line .

The smell of the metal and leather “virginity” , “carved” in your “hard-disc” indelible .Helmet on , first gear and the fresh air is chilling my face so sweet . Destination ?

Me and my close friends , favorite coffee shop for drinking coffee , “examine” my new “machine” , chatting , laughing , having fun without taking ourselves so damn serious . Of course the coffees are on me .

Our beer pints also . Yes the coming night and without driving . I don’t know a better “psychotherapy” , soul “cleaning” , your whole existance “cleaning” scenery from this . True and honest communication , through “light talking” with friends .

With people who you are on the same “soul frequency” , without seriousness and marketing relationships . You don’t realise how fast the hours are passing .

Football , Motorsport , sports , politics , women and anything you can imagine , are “analysed” from us ,without making any sense of course .

Next destination , my favorite restaurant which i can afford now . My company ? The love of my life wearing the dress i like the most . Black , with suspenders , long and tight with all the appropriate accessories of course .

Yes my friend , my gift to her . I CAN AFFORD NOW . We order our favorite dishes , our best wine and the atmosphere is a ” Pretty Woman’s ” one .

I speak little . I like to watch her speak , i listen telling me her news , her ambitions , her dreams , her thoughts . whatever she wants and i flaunt her .

I take some DEEP BREATHS , the ones which comes from deep down and they are a mix of relief , happiness , satisfaction .

And LOVE of course . I pay the bill , (i don’t care how much , i didn’t even see it for the first time in my life also ) and we are on the route to my home .

The garage door closes and i can hear the metals of my dream car( yes my friend !!! ) , making : chic – chic , as they’re getting cold .

Before i close the garage light and go straight to my be_ _ room , you don’t need to know where i’m going now !

I stand a little , low my head , make some last thought for all this , make a big smile ( the silent one ) , close the light and go . LA VIE EST BELLE !!!!!!

I truly wish to you my friends ,to MAKE A SMILE LIKE THAT IN YOUR LIFE . I don’t know what you do , when you are so stressed up and the “light in the tunel” doesn’t show .

I MAKE INFINITE (perfection) DREAMS ……..