Friday is coming and it is a big celebration for your country .

Many public agencies will be off duty ,many businesses will “rest” too and the biggest part of country’s citizens will go to the countrand villages .

The things are the same in your small town , and it is a very big opportunity for many to take a littel rest , from their daily routine and “charge their batteries” .

All your friends will go to their villages in countryside and you have many invitations to join them and relax a little .

The same apply for your family and relatives . Your cousins will go to the village and you know that the following weekend will be so funny and full of entertainment activities .

Late wake ups in the morning , refreshing breathing in the country air , morning coffees with your relatives near the river and light chit-chats , erading the morning newspapers and commenting everything .

Playing with our dogs and pets and making “scientific” plans ,to which beach we’ll go for the rest of tha day . After a couple of hours (!) concsultation and the pick of our best beach , we will take cars and bikes and go .The route to the beach will be so fun either .

Cold coffees again , card games for some ,beach – tennis for others , chess for the more patient and cool , reading fashion magazines for the girls and for all , lots of time in the water , swimming , playing water games , chit – chat with gigantic mood for gossip , and talks we cannot speak in our “crazy” lifes in town .

These times , countless tons of stress is leaving your brain and most important your soul and you can think so clearly .

Your “hard-disc” , is making “million” of resets and updates , keeping your precious balance as a person . These are very fragile , VERY IMPORTAND MOMENTS for you and your life’s “marathon” .

After the beach hours , the returning back to village , after the sunset follows .

A quick shower , maybe a snack for those who dind’t eat someting in the beach , and the night hasn’t began yet .

Some walks in the light chilly air of the afternoon ,across the small village country roads ,having “psychotherapy” through chit-chating sharing thoughts ,dreams , ambitions sharing life .

Sometimes , our talks would be interrupted by a bird’s croak or fly near us or a nature animal pass .Peace is all over us and our souls ,are coordinate to this peace without understand it , at all .

Yes in these conditions , you “forget” your “civilized big city self ” and you return in a primary human condition .

As you enter into a time-capsule and become an innocent kid again . After these restless time , barbeque time will come .

Big fires will light up , steaks , sausages , maybe fish , vegetables and whatever can be burned in fire , is burned .Cold beers , local wine and soft drinks will escort all this ….. and of course music .

Our mood is in its highest levels , all problems are “forgotten” , as if we’ve never had problems in life , or as if we’ve “foolish” enlarged problems and let them tranform us , to something sad .

Oh , JESUS how beutiful life is . Yes i DIDN’T MAKE SECOND THOUGHTS . I followed and join them for the upcoming weekend .

Yes we did all of the above and it FELT SO GOOD .Yes i went to “charge my batteries” a little bit and i don’t have any regrets .It won’t inflect my struggles to reach my goals , on the contrary this will boost my efforts more .

So i must stop feeling guilty and having regrets because i’ll go to have fun a little . I am a huamn , am i not ?

But why i feel i little guilty ? Maybe because i had again a small vacation 3 weeks before ? Anyway , i didn’t overthink of it and i had my time out .

And it was so badly good . I COULD GET TO USE TO ALL OF THIS COMFORT “NO WORRIES” LIFE AND FORGET EVERYHITNG !!!!!!!

But the reality “lands” me on earth and tomorrow i’ll go back to my usual training and preparation . For the first time , i dind’t hear the alarm clock and several phones of my coach were needed to wake me up .I got up , very hardly .

My body is heavy and i need half an hour to “really” wake up and set my brain in the training mode .

I cannot remember exactly the daily target i have , the times i need to “catch” to be better then the previous week . My mind is still in my vacation and the fun i had . A smile begins to shape in my mouth , but i “cut it” and try to focus to my daily training evolution .

After some strict talk from my coach about my delay i begin my training which for today is high speed running combined with intermitten running to get aerobic resistance and incease my cardiopulmonary power .

I start good the laps i need to run with these several technics ,but when it is time to give whatever i’ve got so i can make progress , i catch my mind “fly” away to my previous fun weekend , trying to avoid the hardness .

Of course i don’t tell this to anyone , but i start NOT TO LIKE ALL OF THIS .

I make the rest of the rounds , pushing my self and my mind to be 100% focus and even if my brain is trying to play “tricks” again to me , i complete the training in a satisfying level .But inside me i begin to get angry to myself .

I don’t like this kind of “version” of myself . I don’t like being “soft” .

I always liked to be brutal determined when i’ve chosen to follow a “road” without letting anything distract me . And now i let my mind “fly” away to worlds of easiness and softness .Mm , this is something i’ve never experienced again in the past and i must adapt .

I must mentaly adapt , and make it a useful experience to use for in the future .The afternoon , i went to the gym for my empowerment using weights and that’s what happened during some very heavy exercises .

The kind of exercises in which you reach the complete muscle failure .The stage in which your exhausting muscle , cannot make no move at all . This is very painfuland requires your whole SOUL POWER , to push into levels you’ve never gone before .

So when the final extreme painful reps(which makes the difference) were getting closer ,i “cheat” my coach and myself that i’ve reached the total failure point , to avoid the last 2 crucial reps and the enormous pain .

The trick fooled all of my surroundings , but NOT MYSELF !!!

I took the road back home , very troubled with myself .Yes and big disappointed .This is not the right way to do “things” .This is not the CORRECT WAY to come closer to my dreams .

I got softer and i didn’t realise that !!!!!!

I started to feel nice with myself , MAKING TRIES WITH 95% EFFORT and MENTAL FOCUS .THAT’S NOT ACCEPTABLE . PERIOD .

This way is going to lead me , with 100% certainty to failure .

This thought made me very troubled . Real trouble . This isn’t a love disappointment , a job disappointment , a social relationship disappointment . This thought is something else .

This is all my life . MY WHOLE LIFE IS AT STAKE HERE and i’m playing “games” with myself .

JESUS , how i let myself to take the easy road ?

How i let , the ” good life ” , the “EASINESS” before my final victory , make me soft and BLIND ME OUT ?but , no more tears , no more self pity .

I MUST RETURN BACK !!!!!!

One hour earlier wake – ups every day ,5 miles more running ,more intensed till the last meter ,10 miles more in the bicycle without shortcuts and easy downhills .

More exercises in the gym ,more pounds ,more reps , till my ACCURATE fainting point and whatever my trainers tells me to do will be my future life without unnecessarily time-outs .

Rest and time – outs , only for body recovery and psychology rest only when it needed and MORE POWER COME BACKS .

Who knows , maybe all these was THAT KIND OF SITUATION !!!!!!!!!!! .

A MORE POWERFUL COMEBACK !!!

I suppose this experience , made me wiser and more mature not let easyiness ruin my plans .