At the beggining , i was empty . My arrival in this planet wasn’t so far away in the past .I had no experience at all , i dind’t know nothing .

I only cared to eat , play , observe around the other “beings” , and that’s it .

Later i walked , speaked , understand the other being talks , riding my bicycle , ate different foods , play with other kids in my neighborhood , wounded my knees a little and having so much fun .

In my early teenage years , many changes happened to me . Except my moustach which getting biggir and bigger , or my extented changes of my female body ,“strange” were happening to my existance .

I realized that i was good in subjects , such as sports and some lessons in school .

The thing i realized for myself was that , when i liked something and i was a little good with it , i couldn’t stop thinking it , the whole day . I did other things , opposite with what i recently discovered i liked , but my mind was stucked thinking of what i liked .

And when i found time , i run full of SOUL HAPPINESS , to do that activity . I didn’t knew the logical words to discribe my emotions , but i didn’t care .I only knew that , i was feeling happy doing it .

The years were passing by and as i was growing to the end of my teenage years , the things i liked , was good and passionate about , were fewer than i was a kid .

To be exact , i only liked one thing and visualize my self , doing it , till the end of life .

That’s the way i felt . My surroundings and family environment had their suggestions and opinions , but deep inside me , i liked other “things” .

So i decided to follow my own path and become : an architect , a chemist , a mechanic , a race driver , a professional boxer , a musician , a poet , a politician , a lawyer , a fashion model , a fashion designer .

I knew , that the field i’ve decided to follow was very competitive , very demanding physically and mentally , but i didn’t care .I wanted to try , and “feed” my inner flame with ,sweat , blood and tears , to succeed .

And i did it .Yes i feared and sometimes i was terrorized ,walking alone to unknown terratories and inventing new rules for my life , not following anyone else .But , i didn’t LET FEAR BE MY GUIDE . Sometimes things went easy , sometimes didn’t .

One of the toughest things , i discovered during this “trip” is that : it’s very difficult , strange to you till the beggining of the “trip” ,mentally demanding like you’ve never experienced before , physically exhausting and humanly dangerous sometimes , to write NEW RULES for your life , from totally zero !!!!!

This process is something , which can “brake” you , very easily and PERMANENTLY .

This personally whole new path of yours , can destroy you , if you failed , or didn’t achieve your goals in the grade you’ve hoped .

If something goes wrong for any reason( beyond your human powers maybe ) , and you’ll take this incident , more serious than it needed , you’ll maybe cause your self and your health , a very crucial damage .

That time is a time , you’ll hate and blame yourself as you’ve never before .

Because you have the greatest expectations from you , and you are the most strict judge from anyone to your self , the “things” you’ll catch yourself saying to you , will be the cruelest and inhuman .

Because deep inside you , you feel an undefeated winner ,failure is something your brain and heart cannot handle .

You feel a worthless bum( worthless humans , or beings don’t exist , my friend!!!!!!!! ) ,your dreams are so far away and maybe never accomplished , and “this is your fault ”.

You feel a stupid dreamer who was beaten by life and society’s rules and as beaten dog , who dared to escape the flock , and you’ll draw back with your tail between your legs ashamed , till the “end of time ” .

This moment into a humans life is one of the toughest moments , in their purest form . Your existance deepest cell is at stake .

The “cure” , you’ll deside to give to you , will define your future life .

This time ,you’ll find honest collaborators , friends , who will understand your fragile position , and will try to help , as they think they can .

LET THEM HELP YOU in every way they can . It is a VERY HEALTHY and welcomed situation . The ancient Spartans , after their battles , many of them were cried !! . And encourage to cry .

They beleive that , the tears were “cleaning” ,their stressed souls from the brutality of the blooded battle . DO THE SAME .

On the other hand in some cases , you’ll maybe found humans who will hurt your feelings , judge you very bruttaly .

Most of the times without ,wanted to do you harm by evilness , they just be judges . Society’s rules , sometimes are alike jungle rules and in jungle , the strongest survives .

This is something you should unticipate and have it in a “corner” , of your mind .

Don’t get angry ,furious , smash things , desire payback and become grim . And the most significant : DON’T HATE THEM !!!!!!!

Sometimes they are driven by their false huge ego , which speaks inside their head and creates the insecure need , to judge you with words ans actions .

Adopting that kind of an attitude , they feel more secure than you .That’s it .It is no evilness , it’s survival instict .

This so sensitive moment for you ,step a little back ,don’t repay , take the time to heal your deep wounds ,and during that process( in which you’ll discover so many hidden “treasures” for yourself ) , if you’ll find some time to smile a little and see “things” different , EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK !!