Do you see , in what filthy hospital they brought you to be borned ? Remember it . Do you see that they don’t care much for the conditions in which you’ll take your first breath ?

Do you see that the only true and not typical smiles , are the ones of the nurses and the doctors , who did their best to bring you on this planet and not the “other ones” ?

Do you see that they try to smile to you with honesty , but their body language “betray” them ? Remember it .

Do you see that , after the first moments of “happiness” , they dumped you in a tiny bed in the hospital , in which the holes in the sheets ,are bigger than the “sun” ? Remember it .

Do you see that they only paid attention to you only when you engage the “sirens of war” with your cries ? Remember it .

Do you see that they take care of you , with a cigarette in the mouth and their eyes red from the substances they take ? Remember it .

Of course you are a tiny little human , and you cannot understand what i say to you right now ,but i exist since the exact time you took your first breath , and my “job” is to REMIND you , WHO is hurting you during your lifetime .

Do you see their eyesights when they talk about you , and the new responsibilities they have now caused by you ? Do you see them very happy ? I don’t think so .

Now they talk in front of you ,becauce you are a tiny baby and they think that you don’t feel their negativity .But I’m here to remind you . Remember it .

Do you see the stinky baby cot they’ve putted you , when they brought you home ? No fresh colored walls , no toys around , no clean shits smelling freshness and NO LOVE .They dumped you there and they went to continue their lives , as you doesn’t exist . Remember it .

Do you see that , if you don’t cry , you don’t get feed or changed ? Do you see that when they come to change and feed you , no matter how cute you are and how hard you shake your litte arms and legs , they never kiss and hug you ? Remember it . And how much YOU NEEDED A HUG .

Do you see that since you came in the house as a new member , the fights between them , are in daily basis and harder than ever , mostly about money and the new era of responsibilities you brought ?

Do you see that sometimes when they change , or taking care of you , so you don’t bother them , they do it with high nerves and often they hurt you during the process ?Remember it .

Do you feel the PAIN ? This are the first times you feel physical PAIN , but “trust” me , you’ll feel many kinds of PAIN during your lifetime . Remember it .

Do you see that now , as you are growing a little bit more , the fights are harder . Remember it .

Now you know that something is going wrong and inside your TINY heart , you feel “strange” . Do you see that as you grow , and become a bigger child this “strange” emotion , is “visiting” you in daily basis ?

As if this emotion’s “food” , are fights , tension and the “heat” in atmosphere . You don’t know what this is , but you feel uncomfortable for sure and the smile in your childish face is “demolished” by it . Remember it .

Do you see that when you made your first step and spoke your first words , after some typical again smiles from them , and some photos they’ve taken , no hug received by you again ? And you wanted a BIG HUG , so much . Remember it .

Do you see that , the times , you enter the living room full with pride and happiness for accomplishing something , but nobody cares ?

You see them laying in the couch with their eyesights , being “empty” and “dust” , injections as the guys with the white blouses have(!) , are all over the place ? But you don’t see any white blouse guy !!!!!Remember it .

Do you see how many times , they have forgotten you completely and your belly was hours and hours empty , as the “big white box” in the kitchen was ? Remember it .

Do you remember the emotion you feel by all these ?

Yes it is the same “strange” feeling you’ve felt , in the near past . Remember it .

Do you see that they carry you , as a “luggage” from here and there , from relatives to unknown “friendly” houses , in which you must stay( and smile) , as long they and their “friends” have that “empty” eyesights and laying in couches . Remember how “strange” and uncomfort you feel ? Remember it .

Do you see how many times they embarrass you , because you have some extra kilos than the other kids , or you didn’t manage to learn to swim so fast as the others .

Remember when you didn’t manage to learn balance and ride your bicycle they bought for you and they emphasize it so loudly ? Do you feel extremely HUMILIATED and WORTHLESS ?
Remember it .

Do you see that this time period , you’ve been “indroduced” to PAIN and STRESS by these behaviors of them , while the other children are so happy in your neighborhood ? Remember it .

You must use this feeling of PAIN you feel , to do some “jobs” with him as your closest “friend” .

Do you see that even if you try so much to impress them , doing “silly” things sometimes , they don’t give a second of their attention , except of the times , in which they yell at you ? You feel a little disappointed and a different kind of pain , aren’t you ? Remember it .

Do you see how many times you wake up in the morning alone , brush your teeth above a chair alone , dressed alone , grab something to eat alone , go to the school bus station alone ,because they couldn’t even get up from the bed , by the last night “things” they did ?

Remember it .

Do you see how many times you get up in the morning , waken from their screams and fights , do all the above alone in the “fast mode” , so you can go out and “escape” from this madness ?

Your inner PAIN is bigger now , and doesn’t leave you not for a minute , isn’t it ? Remember it .

Do you see how many times you wake up during the night , THINKING(!) that you hear their screams and their loud voices and then you try again to sleep , with no result of course ? Do you you feel the ANXIETY and STRESS , your internal PAIN cause you ? Remember it .

Do you see that your excuses , you say to your teachers are finishing , and you cannot justify their ignorance anymore ? Do you see the eyesights of your fellows at school and their underrated grimaces for you ? You lower your head , you try to smile a little and you go feeling so bad .

Remember it .

Do you see that the hours , you have truly fun playing with your friends , are reducing more and more , because without even know it subconsciously , you “prepare” yourself to go back home and you don’t like it , a bit ?

Do you see that staying outside instead of being home , is the best scenario .and as long as you try to stay outside , the more “strange” friends and companies you make ?

But you don’t care !!!!!! You want to stay out in the streets , no matter what people are getting closer to you trying to be your friend ,or you think they try to be your honest friend .

Do you see that they don’t care where you’ve been , or what you do and with whom ?

They only thing they care for , is not to worry them , or hear “things” from the neighbors , because they like to have the fake image of the “politically correct” family . Remember that this ignorance makes your inner PAIN deeper . Just remember .

Do you see that in your difficulties you find as a child , in school , in your lessons , in the choices of your friends and companies , in your general questions you have as a kid who wants to see the world and needs guidance , you are all alone ?

You have nobody beside you to show you the life’s paths , to speak to you his experiences , to advice you , to knock you on your back when you make “newbie” mistakes to LOVE you , no matter what .Now the PAIN you feel is beyond your imagination and a daily “close friend” , isn’t it ?

Remember it .

And of course in your mind , passes the idea to abandon school , because the difficulties and your surroundings , have PERSUADED you , that you are NO GOOD and maybe you are not so smart to continue .

This fact makes you more confused , more angry with yourself , your SELF-ESTEEM is absolute zero and you hate yourself , because you borned so USELESS . And of course makes your soul pain deeper than ever , which makes my “job” so easy , to guide you to where i want to .

Of course i don’t guide you DIRECTLY(!) , but using all these misery emotions you feel so i can make you believe DEEP INSIDE YOU , that i want to help you SINCERELY and gain your trust for ever !!!!!

I want to make my presence so important to you , so you cannot ever , understand the “mind game” i play to youand the best part is that , WITHOUT EVEN KNOW IT !!!!!

Nice trick isn’t it ?

An ancient trick but always(?) works .And the best part is that you think that , the life path i “push” you to take , is your choice , NOT MINE !!!!!!!

So you can never realise my SNEAKY ways and believe that your actions are completely YOURS and they are CORRECT .

It isn’t my style to be proud for this(!) , but i cannot hide it , i’m very proud for my so intelligent sneaky strategy , to destroy human lives .

Of course i did this to you and i beat you , no matter how smart you though you were . It isn’t about intelligence my friend , it’s about TRUST and you trust me 100% , without even know it !!!!!!

The rest of your story is very familiar and so common as so many other “cases” .

I persuade you , to leave school because you “aren’t smart” enough . I “pushed” you to join some very bad companies and “buddies” , who they were “honest” friends of yours and they would
“help” you find all the solutions you want and not only .

These “buddies” will help you even take REVENGE , from all of the ones who “betrayed” you so you can “make them pay” .

I persuade you , that by taking “revenge” and give back pain , you’ll make your own PAIN cool down and give you peace . And you believed me , because you trusted me ,”whispering” in your ears all these years since your birth .

And you began to make some minor illegal “things” , at first and than to move forward to more serious crimes , in order to gain power , become someone , and take revenge . And you did it as “planned” .

And after some good “scores” you did jail was inevitable .And my friend , you’ll stay behind bars for a couple of years . Not too many , but many enough to think maybe .

To think SERIOUSLY , for your first time in your life maybe . To think about your hole life , the choices you’ve made the PAIN inside you and “clean” your soul from the “garbage” you loaded yourself ,
during your life .

Before i leave you , behind these bars , behind this soul “purgatory“ , let me tell you something . Let me tell you a SECRET and who knows maybe because i like you a little(!) and i don’t think you are a “lost case” .

Before all , let me indroduce myself . I’m the “Bad” EGOISM inside you .I exist in all humans , since day one . I know more tricks than a magician , in order to “push” you do my will .

You don’t even know that the little whisper you hear inside your head , it’s me , NOT YOU !!!!!!! I’m not your thoughts , i CONFUSE YOUR THOUGHTS .

I know all the places to hide inside you , but do you know the best place , which i use to cover myself completely ?

I HIDE BEHIND YOUR PAIN !!!!!

I use your PAIN to motivate you , do bad things .

If you find the power to WITHSTAND YOUR PAIN , YOU’LL WIN , the “game” and achieve whatever you want . You’ll be a Champion of your dreams , for sure . How radical can you be my friend ?

** No matter what was your Starting Line , the Finish line is UP TO YOU !!!!!!!