You have just lost for another time in your life . For naother time you ‘ve lost even if you have tried so hard to make it . To win .

For another time you are loosing the “earth for your feet” , from loss . For another time your eyes cannot bring out a tiny tar even if you want it so much .

For another time you cannot believe it that you’ve lost . For another time you want to be alone , TOTALLY alone from all because you cannot hold the “weight in your shoulders” . For another time you wish , being in a place NOBODY can see you and stay there for as long as it takes , to “lick your soul’s wounds” .

ALL ALONE .

For another time you don’t want to speak to anyone . Even to the humans you love so much . Even if to your boyfriend , girlfriend , wide , children . Yes , you don’t want to speak and share yourself even with the humans who “shares” the same blood with you .

For another time you cannot find a way to with stand the colossal PAIN you feel inside . This pain “eats” you so silently , so hard , so unstoppable . For another time you don’t want to share this pain with anyone , even if you know that this isn’t the best you can do .

Sharing true emotions with the ones who understands helps , but you don’t want anyone near you .

For another time you are wounded so BAD inside you . For another time you’ve lost even if you tried so “damn” hard to achieve your goals . To conquer the goal you want so much .

For another time you fell so EMPTY inside you . Yes you know this emptiness , you have “met” with it in the past , the times you have gained some small victories , but NOT the “war” .

After those small victories , you felt kind of emty inside you , because you’ve given so much from yourself in order to win and your soul needs rest . But this time the emptyness you feel is another emptyness . It’s ABSOLUTE emptyness of the ABSOLUTE failure of yours .

For another time you cannot overcome the pain of theis emptiness . You are so tired inside you and you cannot “battle” tis emptiness . For another time you try to overcome all this , but you are so tired now . Your body powers are so few .

Your mental powers are so weak . Your soul’s powers are so BEATEN .

For another time you try to find solutions , making walks in nature searching for “healers” near nature , but this time our astonishing planet cannot help you much . Even if Nature is a great “soul healer” and a best “psychotherapist” , this time period , cannot do much for you .

You are BADLY hurt , so deep inside . You PRAY to GOD to ease this pain . You pray so intense , as you’ve never before . Your deepest human’s core is badly hurt and you feel so AFRAID by this .

You’re so afraid that you may not make it , this time . You’r eso afraid that this time you’ll LOSE FOR THE LAST TIME . You’re so afraid that this time you’ll LOSE the “war” .

You’re so afraid that all the bad situations you were scared that will happen to you if you lose , will be your reality from now and till the end of your life . This is the scariest FEAR you’ve ever experienced in your whole life .

This fear makes your body “frozen” , makes your soul “dead” .

For another time , you cannot realize what gone wrong and you lose , even if you tried so hard and for so long time . For another time you have noone near you , to REALLY understand you , to REALLY understand what is happening to you .

For another time , your surroundings see you as an “alien” and maybe think that you’re starting to lose your mind and getting “crazy” . For another time you don’t give them much attention . You don’t have the powers to react . To explain .

For another time you try only to “live for another day” , you try only to survive for another day and maybe the tomorrow will be different . For another time , time doesn’t seem to do many for your wounds .

For another time , you try only to breath , eat , drink , move a little your body parts and PRAY for all this , to pass .

For another time , time is passing but the pain inside you isn’t passing . It has “stucked” inside you , day in , day out . It’s like this pain is TESTING you . It’s like this pain is testing your will , your soul , your whole excistance .

JESUS , how strong is this pain and how invictus , it SEEMS to be . It “drains” you , it weakens you , it SCARES you , it makes you wanna cry , but you cannot do so .

You have no tears left in your eyes , but you have “rivers” of tears in your soul and you cry so SILENTLY every single moment , when NOONE sees you .

For another time , you feel like a tiny helpless child , who is so weak to protect himself from the “big ones” . The world so big and you’re so small .

The world is so “wicked” and you are so helpless and “tiny” . The world is so “bad” and the only you can do about it is to stare with your eyes wide open , HELPLESS .

For another time your arms , your feet , your entire body is so “heavy” and you are so weak to even stand up and move it . For another time your body doesn’t “obey” you , even for the simplest things . For another time your soul doesn’t “obey” you , being “frozen” and SCARED .

For another time you have ALMOST nothing , you’re in total zero , you’re done . For another time you’re ALMOST “dead” and you can’t do anything for it . For another time you have no human being or “situation” , beside you , to assist you i any way .

For another time you have only this TINY “FLAME” , very deep inside you , CONTINUOUSLY “whispering” in your ear . This “whispering” , NEVER abandoned you . This “whispering” was always there for you , no matter what happened to you in life .

What this TINY flame “whispers” in your ears and will ALWAYS be there for you , till the end of your life , because it’s the GOD’S “gift” to you , the day you were born ?

No matter how “injured” you are , “ORDER” your soul to GET UP and just do this :

Just KEEP MOVING FORWARD !!!!!!!