If you don’t give me , dirty sheets ,rusty licking tubes ,broken windows , TV playing echo parasites , cockroaches in the corners , spreaded misery all over the hospital ,a couple of poor but hard -working parents so i can be born , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,a week body ,a ” strange ” body , maybe with some ” parts ” missing , maybe with a brain not 100% functionable , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , an aggressive family environment , a violent family environment ( caused by poverty most of the times ) , which makes me stand-up sweaty and terrified from my childish sleep , in the middle or the knight , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , school understanding problems , dyslexia maybe , caused by the tons of violence ( rapes , killings , hittings …. ) i’ve seen till my 7 years old and my brains ” hard disc ” ” sucked ” it like a sponge ,how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,the ” anticipation ” of my daily home violence , after school , which makes me insecure and fearful for everything as an adult , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , the ” opportunity ” , to be sold ( yes these ” things ” exist ) as a slave , as a “thing ” , as a hooker ,as ” meat ” from my family to some rich guys , warlords , or whatever ,how can i …..?

If you don’t give me , a social environment , who sees all that , sees my torture but never interfere to rescue me , give me an advice and unlock my ” Stockholm syndrome ” phycology , to lead me to the “exit light ” , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,a 3 mile everyday ” walk ” to go to my school and 3 to return home , most of times through bad weather and holes in my shoes , how can i …. ?

If you don’t give me ,cruel , cold – hearted and indifferent school teachers , who sees me like an annoying bug interrupting them form they rest hours , with my questions ( and sometimes slaps me in the old days ) , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , erotic problems with my first love attempts as a teeneger , caused from my previous emotional tortured life , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , my first making love failure , caused by my endless tremulous , caused by FEAR , leaving me looking the ceiling with an ” empty ” eyesight and my love partner laughing ( in the best version !!! ) , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first and maybe continuous failure , in my sport tests and the complete negative prospects by my sport trainers , whose devaluation eyesights i’ll never forget , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my firsttotal failure in my class exams , which will make me wonder about my intelligance, how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first car/bike racing defeat with no excuses at all ,how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first broken nose in my boxing match , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first serious leg injury , in my football carrer beggining , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first missing shots at the last second of my first NBA final , costing my team’s first crown and the criticism of the worlds media , how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,the taste of betrayal ( which i never expected ) of a good friend ,how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,friends , who they were never friends , how can i ? If you don’t give me ,the betrayal of my first childish ” till the end of time ” love how can i ?

If you don’t give me ,my first bad divorse , followed by my first businnes disaster , how can i ?

If you don’t give me , people who ,will forget even my phone number and completely abandoned me , when money and fun ends , how can i ?

My Life’s CREATOR , if you don’t give me PAIN , how can i WIN , my FINAL WIN ? THANK YOU .