I DON’T LIKE this new kid .I don’t have any particular reason , i just don’t like him/her .I am a kid , he/she is a kid .

We both haven’t lived enough so that we have a solid opinion of the world ( which is so big and sometimes it scares me and makes me feel insecure ) , but for some unexplained reason , i DON’T LIKE him/her .

Since the coming of this new kid how perfect things were . I was the “commander” in my school class , my opinion was highly respected from all the other kids ( i controled the minority easily using physicall power by me and my close friends most of the times ) .

I had the monopoly of the most attractive girls/boys attention ( which “massaged” my kid egoso nicely ) , nobody dared to challenge me in sports or whatever activity i’ve decided to participate .

I had the privilege to talk to the school teachers more “closely” than others and enjoy their intimacy ( and some better than i deserve lesson grades i suppose ) .

I was giving to the “nerds” of the class to make my homework and i didn’t accept any mistake (!) of course . Sometimes when my own money wasn’t enough for the rest of the day or a party , i was ” borrowing ” some from the “nerdy ” boys .

They never had an objection (!) and i didn’t care about their sore eyesight they gave me every time i was dominate them.

How weakthey seemed in my eyes and how strong(?) i am .

Later in my college years i was always wear the best fashionable and expensive clothes . I had the most expensive cellphone – tablet – Pc equipment – quickest and fancy car . I had the most glamour girl/woman cosmetics and whoever couldn’t afford that kind of lifestyle was automatically an outsider .

I and my friends , were laughing with them sometimes in front of them and sometimes silently , behind their back even if we knew that this kind of laugh , HURTS THE MOST .

I acted the same way , later in my first job as an full adult . I wanted to be the centre of my universe , my personal microuniverse , even if i didn’t deserve it many times .

I organized conspiracies to “kill” and dominate any person who i thought as a threat , even if this person had better college degrees , or was smarter and more efficient than me .

In this point let me tell you a SECRET :

When i am alone and thinking some “stuff” about my life , deep inside me i know that this kind of behavior isn’t so good .You know i’m not so bad person , as i show to my environment but i don’t know , how to overcome the insecurity i feel deeply .

Hurting people isn’t the only way to fullfill your dreams , but what can i do ? Maybe i was raised the wrong way (for million reasons) and didn’t had the right guidness from society the right time during my grow up .

But now it’s late (?) , i can’t change .

Since the coming of this “newbie” person , i feel threaten .

My “throne” and my Ego feels fear . I must act very fast .I must underestimate the new human and make him feel insecure for himself and very small in the eyes of my social environment . And i so big .Two are the areas , in which i must ” shoot my war rockets ” :

The physical and the mental ones .

Usually when you hit one of them , the other ” bleeds ” too .

At the beginning i will hit the physical area , because it’s more easy area than the mental and i know that all human beings have ” issues ” with their body and appearance , no matter how beautiful or ” perfect ” they are .

I know that the fears concerning our external look , are primitive and so deep inside all human beings . So no matter how smart and intelligent you are ,if i press this very sensitive “button” to your personality , i will make a “crack” into your soul , you’ll brake and i will win .

Nice strategy , isn’t it ? Not a very ethical one(!) , but in this “war” of dominance in our social environment , anything is appropriate (?) .

So , “your ears are wider like Tabo the elephant , you are so fat like a sea whale , you are sort like a smurf ,you are tall and clumsy ,your nose is like pinocchio when he lies” .

“Your teeth are like Bugs Bunny’s , your big head is like basket ball ,your legs are curved and fat . Your hair are like a brush , your spelling and talk sucks ,your sport abilities are so low and you’ll “ALWAYS LOSE“.

“Don’t post selfies on Facebook you are so ugly and your funny face is full of pimples , and the list is endless ” .

If my “hits” in the physical won’t be enough to demolish you , i will try in the mental area . A more difficult area than the physical one , because maybe i’m not smarter than you . But i will try with all my powers .

” You didn’t see the hole in front of your eyes , you fell and brake your hand , are you blind ? ” . You took 8 in maths again , you are so stupid ( even if i took 5 !! ) , your text reading is too slow – your pathetic brain can’t do nothing more ? .

“You don’t have money to buy a couple of clothes /shoes more ? That’s why you are coming with the same 4 days in a row ? . I have more friends than you because i’m a better person than you .”

I have more boyfriends/girlfriends than you , because you are not worthy much as a personality – character – lover( in a later season age ) – friend – succesfull profesional in your job – spiritual human being .

“You’ll never make a succesfull and happy family because you are not capable for it and if you’ll make one ,you’ll eventually fail , because you don’t have the maturity and abilities to conserve it throw the years . “

“You are a boring guy/girl , so eventually your wife/man will betray you for another person easier than you can imagine , your kids would be stupid ones and mine’s the smarter of all others . “

And of course this would be your fault , because you didn’t raise them correctly (!) , you are a loser and the list is endless hee too” .

But let me tell you someting my friend about the persons who are willing to do whatever it takes to acieve their goals in life . These persons :

EAT BULLYING for BREAKFAST !!!!!!!!.

* * dedicated to the humans who feel threaten out there ( young or older ones ) and some of them have ended their precious lifes , not able to withstand the pain ………………