I don’t use my alarm clock anymore . I don’t need it . The night before i don’t even care what time i’ll sleep , in order the next morning to get up early and have the appropriate strength , to continue my exhausting plan .

I remember that , for countless nights before my “awakening” , i had so much subconcious stress , to get back home early , not to drink something that would kept me awake late and don’t do anything to interrupt my plans to get home early and sleep .

I needed to control all the external circumstances , so nothing or noone could be able to stop me from sleep early . I also remember that if something out of my plans happened and returned back home more late than usual , i “pushed” so hard my self to sleep and of course i failed .

Anxiety & Stress before the “beast mode” .

My anxiety and highly stress kept me awake till 01:00 or 02:00 o’clock in the morning and of course the next morning i wake up late . You should be there “hidden” in a tiny corner , to see me THAT specific mornings .

I struggled to wake up so hard and when i managed to do it , my anxiety was beyond my human limits . I couldn’t even breath properly from anxiety . JESUS , what days were that . But after my “awakening” moment , NO MORE of that .

Enter the “beast mode” and Just Win .

After that specific moment , those full “attack” stress days are in the past and for good . No i don’t care anymore for alarm clocks , coming back home early , eat the correct food and drink the correct “thing” , so my physical rythms , don’t be disturbed .

Of course and now i’m very careful for my food and supplements , because they have crucial significance , but with another “way” .

It’s like i order my body , not to be affected by anything . I wake up in the morning , ALL ALONE without any external help , no matter what have happened the previous night . Even if , i sleep at 05:00 , i’ll wake up at 06:00 all alone , for my morning jogging and the most important :

I feel no tireless and i’m so “fresh” mentally .

I’ll “jump” from my bed in a “nanosecond” and i’m completely “functionable” . I know that most of people , need coffee and slow rythms for their mornings and they canot perform well , till some time to pass . But NOT me .

I’m in total focus and my brain is in 100% readiness , as if the previous night , somebody , “fixed” me NEW from the beginning . My senses are so expanded having the highest capabilities . I can hear clearly all the noises around me .

I can see clearly without the morning blur all humans have and it’s normal of course . My brain is making “millions” of thoughts , planning the things i must do this day . And everyhting is so quiet around me and INSIDE me . I feel no stress . I feel no anxiety for my day’s goals .

I feel NO FEAR for the posibility of not been able to accomplish my today’s “missions” . I feel so SECURE . I feel so CONFINDENT . Nothing can stop me from doing what i must do in order to follow my traininng plans and be BETTER THAN YESTERDAY .

My body is moving to these “inhuman” rythms for the last 4 months because i’m in the final stage before my final competition for the championship and it’s in BIG PAIN . But i don’t care .

My joints , my muscles , my tendons , my bones , my whole body is in so much pain , but my brain and soul ARE NOT . It’s like i’m two different persons .

I know that my body is closing to its limits and sometimes i “work” above them , but my personality , my brain – heart – soul feel so STRONG . It’s like no power on this earth can reach me and brings me down . I feel so STRONG and TOUGH .

I can feel my body “molecules one by one” and i can “order” them to do their “job” . I order them not feeling anything , not being vulnerable to anything , till the final day of my competition and my VICTORY of course . I don’t know why i feel like that , but i feel so indestrictable .

No my friends , i’m not coming from another planet , i don’t fly(!) and i don’t fear cryptonite !!!! I’m just a human being , as you are . Ok maybe i’m fighting for too many months and years to achieve my goals and that’s why maybe i don’t CARE FOR ANYTHING ELSE THAN VICTORY , but i’m LIKE YOU .

I want to be complete honest with you and i should admit that , this “strange” situation of being so focused and strong , is something i like very much . I know that i’ve passed very tough and hard situations , before this state of mind and soul “visited” me , but i don’t regret all these pain moments .

Those pain moments made me take the decision to enter to this inner “mode” . There are some times in your life , when you are trying so much for something and the goal doesn’t seem to come , you “FORCED” to take a very SERIOUS DECISION .

Do the next step and you’ll be a Champion .

To GIVE IT ALL AND WIN or not . To GIVE WHATEVER YOU HAVE INSIDE YOU without any other conserns for anything , or not . These times in life , fate’s “finger shows you” and you should be ready to “answer” . I suppose it’s one of your life’s time , in which you MUST be 10000000% serious about the “next step” .

These times DEFINE you and what you’ll become and of course it’s not a matter of how old you are , and stuff like that . It’s about HOW READY you are . It’s about HOW MUCH you want to achieve your specific goal . If you step back , i think that you didn’t want it much in the first place .

This isn’t a “bad” thing . It’s just a crucial sign to pick another goal and give whatever you’ve got to this goal . But the certain factor is thit : if you aren’t 100% confident to fight with every physical and mental powers your CREATOR gave you , victory may not come EVER. And this is a sad “thing” .

Why ?

Because it isn’t a “bad” thing to fight and lose . It’s a “bad” thing , NOT fighting with every strength , you’ve got to WIN . In the first case , you will be ok and you don’t have any inside complexes to “crusify” you , till your last breath .

At least you tried with 110% of the entire you , and lost . In the second case , i don’t know . So i’ve pushed my personal “beast mode button“ , for quite sometime now and i feel so nice , this morning just before my morning 20 miles jogging .

Yes i’m not afraid that maybe i won’t be better than my yesterday’s training . Yes i’m not afraid if someone outhere is working harder than me . This IS NOT “possible” . I train like a “madman” every single second with all my powers , to make sure that NOONE can do the same traning .

Yes i don’t care if my money is in bad “shape” . Yes i don’t care what my environment thinks about this insane torture i put myself . Yes i don’t care if my girl/boyfriend doesn’t supports me , or even abandons me . Yes i don’t care about the rumors and the talks .

Yes i don’t care for the ones who think that i won’t make it . Yes i don’t care for some small injuries my body has . I train harder and overcome whatever comes in my way .

Yes i don’t care if my competitors have better equipment , more money , better teachers , better schools , better trainers , better shoes , better clothes , better food . I “push” harder and i USE the obstacles , as motivation and ladder stairs to my success .

I’m so confident that i’ll make it and i visualize every single detail in my mind , to vanish the posibility to make a tiny mistake . I went outside for some walks to think more deeper and adjust my strategies , if needed and i feel the air different .

I feel the light , the plants , the birds and sunsets different . It’s like i can feel the entire planet giving me power to do my job” , as our astonishing earth makes its . To “clear” our brains and souls from our daily “carbage” and “fuel” us .

Yes my friends , the long nature walks , when you are “in heat” to achieve your targets , HELPS THE MOST . “Use” our planet, take optimism and power from it and return to your fights , “recharged” . I do it every single day and i try to be near , nature and gain the benefits from it .

All these thoughts are passing my brain this very early morning , before my morning jogging and i smile a little to myself wondering how much time i’ve wasted till , my “beast mode“ start .

Pain & Difficulties are the best Motivators .

I passed so many difficulties and tough situations , which now seems so far away and the most importand : so wrongly enlarged from me in the past . I fought the only “enemy” existed outhere and it was myself and ONLY that .

It needed to pass through so many situations , to understand and realise that NOBODY else will do the “job” for you and when you deside to do this SOMETHING EXTRA MORE in your life , everything changes . When you deside to be serious for what you really want and don’t be “happy” with just the average , your entire life will change and IT WORTHS EVERY SINGLE TRY . But no more smiles for me and past thoughts .

My training field is waiting for me and i must do more than yesterday . And tomorrow , more than today . But all this is so “easy” now . I vanished my EXCUSES and now the “job” is so much easier .

I JUST DO WHAT I MUST DO . Period . Yes like a well adjusted machine , like a swiss watch and all this became my reality , the moment i pushed my personal “beast mode” button .

What are the circumstances , which will help you do the same ?

An empty wallet , an empty stomach , a “wounded” heart from circumstances , countless and continuous failures and poverty , and an inside “flame” , i think are enough .