You were born in a stinky hospital , across dirty pipes and moisture , having noone to give you your first hug , being an orphan ? I DON’T CARE (i think) .

I was born in the best hospital , having the best doctors ,heat around me , expensive care , the biggest hug possible from my always busy parents (!) and the biggest car to drive me home .

Your first meal was a pint of milk from a rusty tin , which you’ve sucked it in a glimpse of an eye and dumped to a dirty iron bed to sleep ?

I DON’T CARE(i think) . I had the best nannies , feeding me with the best milk available in the pharmacy – market .

My mother had so many jobs in daily basis and i see her only late at nights , but it’s ok .You had noone to see you and encourage you on your first steps , because they were so many other kids around , like you and so little women with white blouses . I DON’T CARE( I think) .

In my first steps , i had around me so , many relatives (most of them i only saw in holiday events , when our tables were full on food and drinks ) ,so many family friends and a couple of neighbors , to watch me walk my first steps on this earth .

My father , was on a business trip and my mother had a meeting with her psychologist , but it’s ok i suppose .

You had so many meetings with foreign couples ,who they would have taken you in a smaller house and they would loved you as their kid ,they said , but none of that happened ?

I have stable parents and family for a couple of times through the year (!) .But with the money they’ve earn , i have the best servant – assistants (!) and they fulfil every need i have as a kid Toys , candy , et.c .

You find your first bicycle half-broken , in the nearest corner , or … in a discount day for a couple of bucks ,given by the big’s house , cash-desk ?

I DON’T CARE( i think ) .

My servants went to the best store and bought the best and most expensive bicycle available .I was so happy . The same happened with your first school bag , for your first day at school ? My servants , bought me the best and most expensive bag exists on earth !!!!!

Yes , the same happened with my books , pens , markets , notebooks et.c …You woke up at 5:00 am to walk to the nearest station so you can take the school bus and not go late at school ?

The luxury car of my family , driven by my servant takes me to school every day , so i can wake up , at 7:00 am .

You were reaching your “kido” limits ,the cold and rainy winters wearing light clothes trying to protect your books from the rain and the bad weather ?

The weather conditions cannot harm me , inside the car .

You didn’t have so many friends in school and some of the kids were looking you strange because , no family waited for you after the classes ? My faithfull servants were always there to pick me up .

And the parties i gave for my birthdays , were the best in town .You have difficulties sometimes with your lessons , exams and noone was around you to HELP YOU ?

I had the best and as many teachers as i wanted to assist me , in the warmth of my home , drinking hot chocolate and eating cookies . You had a couple of t-shirts , one jacket , three pullovers , and two pair of shoes for the hole schooll year ?

I had what you had , and in the best brands existed , for one day .

You’ve learned one language in your schooll , exept your mother language ? I could learned , as many as i wanted and in my comfort of my house , having private lessons with teachers born in the country of the language , i wanted to learn .

You went to your graduation prom , with a taxi ?My father between his business trips , bought me every car i wanted when i became 16 .You worked two jobs , during your teenage years to finish schooll and enter the university you wanted ?

Money was NEVER an issue for me , my entire life .

You’ve rent a small apartment when you entered university . You were looking the two dogs your grandmother – neighbor , and at nights you worked in the nearest pizza ,in order to pay your monthly bills and finish the “uni” ?

I had a 200 square meters full customized apartment , a ford mustang for my walks ,the trendiest(!) clothes existed , two times per week a servant to clean all the mess from my wild parties , a golden credit card with countless ammount , to finish properly (!) , the same or A little better university with you .

You ate hamburger and cheap pizza’s with your girlfriend/boyfriend the early days , and sometimes you didn’t ate , because the money wasn’t enough for gas and food ?

I had as many girlfriends/boyfriends i wanted , during my wild parties . My fridge was always full and the nearest restaurant , knew me with my first name ( and my golden card of course ) .

You were feeling thrilled , stressed and anxiety , during your graduation because you knew that you must find a job very fast and begin your professional carrer ?After my graduation i’ll work to my fathers company , having a big office and secretary from day one .

Maybe i would meet my father more often . You were feeling stressed and having difficulty to sleep at knights , because you expected other ‘things’ , in your job and FOUND other things ?

YOU ARE UNHAPPY for all of this ? I make tiny move with my tiny finger and dozens of people are running to materialize my precious wishes .

But SOMETIMES I FEEL SO EMPTY INSIDE ME !!!!! .

This incident happens late at knights when all are sleeping and i cannot . Yes inspite my wealth and solved problems , I FEEL EMPTY INSIDE ME , DEEP DOWN . I ‘ve never told this to anyone , even if to my wife/husband , and sometimes this gives me a stomach ache .

I must admit , that sometimes i’ve tried to erase this feeling using alcohol and other “things” , some work friends are giving me , but I DON’T LIKE the person i become using these techniques .

On the other , i see you struggling to survive , fighting so many battles from your birth , and seem so HAPPY , and i cannot explain it to myself .

WHY ?

I watch you , counting your pocket coins to buy the cheapest Nike shoe , and I CARE . I watch you , eating meat or a decent meal once or twice a month , and I CARE .

I watch you , studying late at nights using an old lamp , on cold winters and in the hot summers , wearing clothes with holes sometimes , and I CARE .

I watch you , standing upright , during your fathers/mothers bad illness and working and studying , AT THE SAME TIME WITH NO EXCUSES , and I CARE .

I watch you , standing upright , during your own bad illness and overcome it with DIGNITY and POWER , and I CARE .

I watch you , having the guts quiting your job , make your own company having the temper NOT to ABORT YOUR DREAMS , and I CARE . I watch you believe in yourself , as i never believed on mine ,
and I CARE .

I watch you , WINNING your first battlesall by yourself , and i’ll never forget the sight your eyes had . Yes , I CARE .

I watch you succed in life , having no hand around to support you . I watch you giving battles known by you and only you .

I watch you giving anything you’ve got , WILLING to give even your life if needed , and at the same time keeping your soul “clean” and “virgin” , and your heart , UNTOUCHED from the ‘bad’ society ‘things’ , and i “ENVY YOU” !!!!!! .

Maybe poverty , ‘unsolved’ problems , misery , bad situations , lonely nights , soul tears , slavery in every form , countless failed attempts , countless lost battles , loss in general , temporary submission , temporary total failure , isn’t problems but , BLESSING and SOLID HIDDEN POWER which is waiting the unlocking key .

Maybe all these ‘problems’ , are solutions waiting to be solved .

Maybe all these problems , are SOUL PURGATORY . Maybe we are the “two same sides of the same coin” and we should try to help one , another .

Maybe i’ll try myself in my life to reach my personal “heaven” , through “hell” ……