They didn’t care much about my coming in this world but i remember .

She didn’t hold me as much as i wanted , as much as i needed in her arms as a baby but i remember . He also didn’t hold me in his arms as i needed and always hadn’t time for me because of his work . As he said . But i remember .

Often they had me “parked” in a chair or my baby park for hours ,to watch their favorite movie ,or chatting with a cup of coffee in their hands ,didn’t care about my diaper , but i remember .

Many times i drank my milk cold as an ice-cream ,because your attention was somewhere else as usual ,and as much i like the ice-cream but , i remember .

Many times you’ve said to your friends how much i tired you as with my baby “themes” ,thinking that i don’t understand what you’ve sad but , i remember .

Many times you’ve screamed on me trying to make me understand what you wanted ,guessing that i’m tiny andbullying doesn’t “count” on me , but i’m tiny not stupid and of course , i remember .

Many times you’ve tried to “cheat” and not taking me outside , to play with other “little” humans but i remember . Many times you’ve taking as granted because i was a quiet “person” and not yelling as other “noisy” “persons” but , i remember . Many times you’ve underestimate my “tiny” needs and emotions but i remember .

Many times you’ve made me feel “tiny” embarassed infront of other relatives , just for having fun but , i remember .You haven’t helped me with my bicycle , till i fall down many times but , i remember . You didn’t take my side when other kids made fun of me and my efforts to ride my bicycle but , i remember .

Sometimes even you’ve made fun of me , making me embarrased infront of so many and have noone to hold my hand but , i remember .

Sometimes you’ve made even “beg” for your attention but , i remember .I remember your despize eyesight when you saw my cheap school bag for my first year in school but , i remember .

You’ve never took responsibility for the mess we caused in our class and our teacher always had me in constraint but , i remember .You’ve never helped me with my school lessons , even if i’ve always did without complaining a bit but , i remember .

You’ve never bought me an ice-cream when my kido pocket money wasn’t enough ,even if i’ve never had second thoughts to treat you with much pleasure but , i remember .

I’ve never kicked you “dirty” in our school football games ,but you didn’t care smashing my face whenever you wanted , to draw the attention of our coach and the girls of course . And of course , i remember .

You’ve never cared to help me in the exams period with the lessons i wasn’t good at , even if i always solved your math problems , but i remember .You’ve never said to me a tiny thanks when you’ve passed the class because of me but , i remember .

You’ve always forgot to call me first during the summer evenings to go for a ride with our bicycles with the other guys , but i remember .You didn’t seem very happy with my successful entrance in the university , even if i was truly happy for your successes but , i remember .

During our college years you’ve always “accidentally” forgetting to call me even in my birthday but i remember .

During our college years , your calls were more and more thinly , always “accidentally” even if we were so close .Yes , i remember with bitterness .Till we finish our college years , we were meeting only in holidays and in funurals but , i remember .

The years were passing and now we cross randomly in the roads and you are doing that you don’t even know me . I know that , these things happens between humans with no specific reasons , i don’t hold evilness for you but i remember .

I see you and i can imagine ,that you are talking for me and my “strange” maybe appearance( which you don’t like i suppose ) with the others in the office , i make that i don’t understand all this , but i remember .

I see your ironic eyesight my first day in work and even if you tried to make a fake smile to be polite ,i can “smell” fakeness from a mile even if i play the indifferent .Yes this eyesight hurts , so i remember .

I see your efforts to underestimate my work in the company , trying to overtake me “playing out of limits” and i surely tell you , i remember .

I know that modern societies “plays” these ways(and not only maybe) , i don’t like it , i don’t blame you because i know that you are trying to WIN , but many times i feel bitterness and this is the reason of my rememberance .

I see your personality transformation from sweet and kindness whispering in my ear words of endless love and romance , into something else after a while and as much i don’t want it , i remember .

I catch you with another person in a romantic date , a romantic dinner , a romantic bed(!) maybe smiling at me and telling me that : IT ISN’T WHAT IT SEEMS TO BE !! and what do you expect ?

I remember of course .

I watch you trying to cheat me , trying to take the control of my company ,trying to harm my job ,or my entire life’s work for your company’s benefit and as much i was prepared i remember .

I see you telling sycophantic lies in front of my face ,for my face! without even care about me and my feelings and of course “my friend” i remember .

I see you making conspiracies about me , without a specific reason you just didn’t like me , but i remember .

I see you trying to harm me for taking advantage of my big fortune and wealth but this time , i duck my head to the ground , i feel so sad and resposible for my precious kid and i don’t dare to remember .

I haven’t seen you having dinner with me for such a long time and i try to fool myself , that i don’t remember . I haven’t seen my grandchildren for so many time now and also i try to fool myself , that i don’t remember .

I haven’t see you guys for so many weeks now , after my accident which made me sit in a wheelchair for the rest of my life and i know this isn’t happening because you feel uncomfort with my “new” condition . I feel so dissapointed and i remember .

I haven’t seen my girlfriend/boyfriend for the same reason .Why you turned your back on me , now that i need my friends more than ever ? I sadly remember .

You “silently” walk away from me ,now that i’m a successful person and everything is going well in my business and personal life but i remember .I’ve seen some signs of jealousy maybe in your behavior , but i didn’t took them seriously then . Now i know !

I’ve seen you watching my new car – house – bike – boat – watch – T-shirt or whatever , with a kind of envy in your face( but why my friend , these are simply “things” ) but i suppose you’ve already know , i remember .

I see you stealing my car – bike – watch – money or whatever , and i’m not only remember , i also speak curses for you and your precious life , your precious family , children and whatever it comes in my furious brain . Yes i’m not proud of it .

I see you wanted to dominate me because you feel – are – have more power than me , but i remember thinking inside , about how many people are trapped into powerslave “thing” .

I see you beating me , steal my pocket downtown in the subway and i also remember saying curses for you loudly now .

I see you beeing a powerful man/woman , a politician , a famous star , an athlete , a scientist , a very intelligent person and NOT USE YOUR POWER TO MAKE GOOD and i remember . I have experienced betrayal in all possible forms and i remember so bad .

I have experienced TORTURE – BULLYING in my body and in my soul , so many times , with so many different ways , from so different people , or by life only and i remember .

I tried to FORGET the pain i’ve felt from all this torture , i didn’t manage to FORGET IT so i remember .

Very deeply now and i suppose i will CARRY ALL THIS “LOAD” FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE “eating” me so sneaky .

Forget the incidents , keep the lessons and FORGET !!!!!

And the most importand :

People aren’t bad , don’t fall into hatred . Situations are sometimes bad and you need to FORGET , with a tiny smile . Remembering is simply grudge and Winners don’t do that .